19:03 June 11th, 2016

  1. There is a lot of  gravity in the saying, “It’s okay not to be okay.” Don’t discount it as a cliché.
  2. Your life is organic, you are organic, like vines and leaves swaying in the wind, like the grass that bends but does not break underfoot. There is beauty in a lack of stability. While I recommend that you do not live within this turbulence, there is no use in pretending that your life consists of brick and mortar.
  3. You do not need a highly saturated, vibrant life. You will not get in trouble for feeling dull. You are not alone in feeling monochromatic. You are allowed to step back and stop throwing Technicolor filters on days spent in bed and on days spent in longing.
  4. There are things people want in the world. Fame, parties, sexuality, social engagements every hour, a relationship— it’s okay not to want these things. You could want to want it; however, it is not wrong to say those things are not meant for you. (but, like anything, don’t discount those things completely)
  5. Find solace in the fact that, while you cannot put life on pause, you, yourself, are allowed to take a break. Take a day off. Watch the world spin around you, if time permits, and find a place where you can go to hide from vertigo.
  6. Don’t surround yourself with things and people that make you feel less than beautiful or wanted. It is easy to fall into a routine, but if you notice that your cup is feeling emptier and emptier as time goes on, take the time to figure out how you can fill it for yourself.
  7. Personally, it takes a lot of guts to learn how not to be okay. It takes a lot of guts to stop telling myself that I’m supposed to be fine all the time. But, it all depends on your standard. If your norm is defeat, it takes a lot of courage to let yourself win in your mind’s eye. Let’s both work on that.
  8. Being happy more than sad is not inauthentic, it doesn’t have to be a 50/50.
  9. Being happy all the time, being sad all the time, none of that matters. You simply have to be. Once you accept every state of “being” as beautiful and know that you there are reciprocals to either of those feelings, then you’ll really be living. That is the reality of it; if you expect anything other than that, that is where your dissatisfaction lies.

There are thousands of poems out there, telling you to make the best of situations. I’m not telling you to plant flowers in the divots of your knuckles and to spread fairy dust on the mounds you’ve kicked in the dirt. I’m telling you to look at those knuckle wrinkles and dirt piles and know that they are what they are, and the fact that they exist is pretty cool. 

The fact that you’re even thinking about all of this and alive and here on Earth is pretty cool. Don’t forget that.

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